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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

must get through this...

and yet, i'm ready to give up.


Sunday, January 01, 2006

THE NEW YEAR 2006

And so ends 2005, the most memorable year in my life...

The 2005 year started off like any other year. Winter break, friends, and family. With family, came the traditional Korean New Year's ritual...




Going back to school, announced the arrival of Spring 2K5 and with it, the Alpha Iota Pledge Class for Lambda Phi Epsilon-Delta Chapter, where I met my 11 other pledge brothers, that soon winded down to 8 other pledge bros


Of course, I can't forget my aKDPhi Alpha Zeta Pledge Sisters, a class that started off with 12 as well....


I definitely can't forget about my aKDPhi Big Sis, Jane Wu, who was always there for me through my pledge period...thanks big sis.


And through it all, a strong class of 4 brothers...Lambda Phi Epsilon crossed the Alpha Iota Class.




And my lovely aKDPhi AZ Pledge Sisters, crossed a strong class of 10.


And they're definitely crAZy...


So there's always much love in our SPRING 2K5 Family




And as Spring 2K5 school year drew to an end, I had the fortunate chance of picking up my SOPi Big Sis, Ivanne Tat. Thanks for always looking out for me big sis.


Then Fall 2K5 rolls around which not only brought the new Alpha Kappa Class into our brotherhood...


But a semester where I had the incredible honor of becoming the youngest Pledge Dad--a Pledge Dad for the Gamma Beta Class of Sigma Omicron Pi, a class that started off with 11 girls...




And in the end, Sigma Omicron Pi crossed a class of 3 Gamma Betas: Vivian Chen, Connie Tat,  and Linda Lu. As weird and crazy as you girls are, I love my kids.


Of course, Fall 2K5 just wouldn't have been the same without my Lambda Lil Sis, Hana Paek.  I love you too.


It seems like most of my 2005 life was packed with all those memorable times with my brothers....








...but i couldn't have asked for a more memorable and best year in my life.

I welcome 2006 with open arms, excited to see what awaits me in the future. And to help carve out a rough path for my life in 2006, my New Year's resolutions I have come up with so far, are as follows:
  1. Go to Church on a regular basis
  2. Always continue to be there for my family, and as a good role model for the younger ones.
  3. Grow mentally and spiritually in all aspects.
  4. Stay healthy by exercising and eating right.
  5. Stop procrastinating, study hard, get that excellent GPA.
  6. But also know when it's time to relax and have fun.
  7. Don't be afraid to try new things with this year...


Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Maybe I made a mistake...
Maybe I made the wrong decision,
     took a wrong turn.
My nights have become a sleepless slumber.
Thoughts pound against my chest, slap my face,
     hurl me around, and slam me into other thoughts.
I struggle to get up, stand up, understand the way I acted
     before the past bleeds out from within me.
I tell myself I can handle this, that I'm stronger than this, I am above this.
Yet, as easily as blades pierce the flesh, so do these thoughts to my
     soul.
I try to find a comfort in the things I know well,
I look to find rest in words of wisdom,
I humbly receive the advice of others...
Yet nothing releases my mind from these tormenting chains.
In the infinite black, my mind falls to its knees, trembling, its arms
      chained to a wall of endless pasts, beads of sweat trickling down
      its hung head.
Its insides iced with sadness, frustration, and anger, every breath
      exhaled hangs in a foggy mist, only to slowly rise to caress
      my mind's face whispering torturous words into its ears.
I yell enraged at myself and my mind fights against its shackles,
      too stubborn...too proud to be imprisoned.
You cannot go back...I am reminded.
What is done, is done...I am told.
Leave it behind you...it has been whispered.
I yell, I fight...to the bitter depths of exhaustion, I will fight.
No, I say, when you bear the scars and brands that I have come to
      bear...
      that taint me...
      that haunt me...

....you always look back.


Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Food for my thoughts on...strength & power.

"If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself, but to your own estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment."
    -Marcus Aurelius


"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will."
    -Mahatma Gandhi


Saturday, December 10, 2005

Finals Week = I am screwed

I am screwed = Going to Fail

UC Berkeley = (Now in) Finals Week

UC Berkeley = I am screwed = Going to Fail

*sigh* bloody hell...I'm going to Fail in UC Berkeley....

and yet, here i am typing away at this xanga entry.



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